Gambling

I am tired. Of wanting things Having things Then not having them. Missing people Only to meet them And realise They’re not the same Anymore. Going places Only to reach there And realise you must Head back Just as soon. And not being able to change Things that matter And things that don’t. Above all… Read More

Majestic

A swan, Paddles away Furiously Beneath the surface. Just to stay Afloat. Nothing else. Yet you, Can only Percieve White floating grace; Ripples nor Sound. Flawless, Utopian elegance. And you, Can’t imagine Madness Behind the scenes; Hard at work. Persevering, Constant struggle. The facade Of perfection; Unstable. Control, no control; Infinite cycles, intersecting.. Culminating.. Every… Read More

The rain is my friend

…And the rain Knocks on my window Like friends pulling you Out of your bed On a Friday night When you’re in bed early.. You’ve lost your job Are too depressed And broke To want to drink Or smile Or even be able to afford either Even if you wanted to… © Jay Kaushal Image… Read More

Your time will come

Don’t be afraid, For the storm will pass; And the morning breeze Will come knocking, again On the window. Dont be afraid; For the clouds, will part For the sun; And the thunder would be long gone, Like the rain. Dont be afraid Of the wolves at the door. If you can make it Till… Read More

Stop begging them to stay!

When someone wants To walk away, Just let them. When someone wants To leave, knowing How much you Really need them; Just let them. The problem is You can’t see, That the one Walking away, is; So you have One less distraction To deal with. One less detractor To criticise, your Beliefs and ideas. One… Read More

Loving you

Love, hate, longing, losing, discovering ourselves through each other… I’ve felt all this and not, at times; but then, again. I know all about these feelings. Yet all I know is that I keep falling in love.. with you, and then I keep getting back up, again. © Jay Kaushal If you liked this poem,… Read More

I want to be remembered

I’m twenty seven and fading away; Fast, into oblivion. With each day, my years lose the promise they held all those years ago. Each day takes away from me the chance of an early fame. Each new day brings meaning to my life; And robs the meaning from all years past. I am at crossroads… Read More

The power of your dreams

You could lose, Everything; in a second. If you do, Would you still want, What you want right now? You could be wrong and lost, In the dark woods of confusion. If that happens, Would you still keep walking, This path you’ve chosen? You may sleep tonight And not wake up tomorrow. If you don’t,… Read More

Take a bow

It’s a painful song; sung with vocal chords, dampened in their blood. It’s a stirring act; enacted by the corpses, of our own ambitions. It’s a rousing rendition; of the dramatic saga, of our spirited struggles. It’s a mesmerizing reenactment; of heroic battles fought, by anyone great. Ever. It’s an adroit narrative, of thriving in… Read More

Bad Decisions Good Decisions

Bad decisions, are unfairly judged; and criticized, quite harshly. Good decisions, are over rated; and too leniently praised. Bad decisions, leave you; with better sense of judgement. Good decisions, merely leave you gloating; over your judgement. Bad decisions, afford you, a brief recess; via failure Good decisions, leave you with little time, to reassess. Bad… Read More

Until I Win

Wasted days,Wasted nights,What a wasted life,This is turning out to be. For years I dreamt,For years I strived,For an extraordinary story;An extraordinary life. The struggles don’t end.The pain doesn’t ebb.Like a thorn in the sideMy dreams have turned out to be. Dejected and deflated,Left Disgusted and dilapidated.As around town,paraded naked, my failures have been. Even… Read More

Suicide Note

Years of spirited struggle reduced to nought.Hours of contemplation precede,Seconds lasting eternity;As life-long dreamsconclude into frivolousness. There was a voice somewherein the distance;I don’t remember where,or who it was;it was comforting, somewhat. No flashes of light, like they say,neither darkness.No flashes whatsoever.Plain sordid reality;just hits you like concrete. Maybe it happened too fastor it took… Read More